For someone who didn't date much in her 20's, it was also the first time I've ever come face-to-face with an ex where the break-up wasn't mutual and friendly. I survived!! Whoooooooo!!!
I'm kind of the emotionally-retarded equivalent of a 13-year old teenager when it comes to relationships. Did I say I didn't date much in my 20's? Yeah, well, I didn't date at all in my teens! So it's really something I'm having to get to grips with now instead. Being overweight and secretly low on self-esteem for a long time will do that to you.
Now, however, I'm diving into the deep, murky world of relationships, and learning to swim. Or drown. We might have to see how that one goes in the long run! Anyhoo, back to the wedding and the "reunion". I was seeing Chris for 3 months and all was going fairly swimmingly, or so I though, until one day Chris just sort of .... went AWOL.
People who are more experienced with relationships and break-ups may have seen this one coming, but in my hopeless romantic optimism, I didn't. It's sort of hard to break up with someone when they just stop talking to you. Reading that back though, I'd have to question who's the bigger relationship juvenile in this situation - him for thinking it was ok to just stop talking to me one day, or me for getting stubborn and refusing to chase it and force a conclusion.
So that was 7 weeks ago and not a sighting or a word since then. We both knew we'd be at the wedding on Saturday, and in a truly mature move, I approached the wedding with the intention of looking at hot as is humanly possible for me. A ridiculously (expensive) slinky dress, black tights and skyscraper stillettos to make my legs look their best (obvs!) and great accessories. I'll admit it: I looked hawt.
Irritatingly, so did he. They're not supposed to show up looking tanned and good in a suit are they?
But that's not the point, as I'd like to say I carried it off with aplomb. Smiled warmly when we had to acknowledge each other, and then proceeded to have a riot of a time at the wedding whilst staying neatly out of his way. It's not my fault that my table at the wedding breakfast was shrieking and laughing the loudest and generally having the most fun (or that his table was next door to witness that). And it's certainly not my fault that the DJ was a friend of mine and played awesome tunes which got us in the mood to rip up the dancefloor, which we duly did.
Despite getting very drunk of champagne (it would be rude not to really, and I don't have that amount of self-control, especially when faced with an annoyingly cute looking ex), I behaved with dignity (ignoring my pogoing bare-foot on the dancefloor - it was appropriate for the song at the time), didn't make a fool of myself and stayed the hell away from him. He on the other hand got staggeringly wasted, groped my friend drunkenly whilst
Score one to me, I'd say. Yeah, I'm mature.
Although, I'm still annoyed that I don't actually know why he just walked away. On the upside, he did admit to my friend (whilst intoxicated) that he'd been an asshole. Gee? You think?
Good news: I have learned I can cope with exes :-)
Other than that little drama, it was a glorious wedding. The rain didn't dampen spirits, and the couple were deliriously happy. There was home-made bunting, and a beautiful cake made by the groom's sister, good friend's, laughter and hugs. A wonderful day.